Well it feels strange. Who is saying? Me, myself. What feels strange? Umm, the stillness, the nothingness, empty state of mind. interesting. --- It's been sometime that I have longed for a calm, *slow* life. Turns out, I even have it today in my plain-sight. The type of chaos, stress and compulsive work environment no more surrounds my day which was a living reality two calendar years back from now. The interesting part is that today, I find the "void" which comes with slow living, bothering. Like not doing anything, or not having to gun your head with tasks of to-dos, all of a sudden have become overwhelming. As I click down my fingertips and reflect I feel I have become obsessed with overdoing and under-living, almost makes me feel that my days itself have become frazzled. There's something I asked myself, why am I avoiding the void? I am struck. For now I am still contemplating... *Date: 2023.12.20* *10:57*